Someone gets it. Someone feels EXACTLY like me. Right down to the tiniest detail. I am not alone in this crazy place of discontented contentment.
I am going to share some excerpts with you from the introduction
" i had much to be happy about. I was married to Jamie.....we two delightful daughters....I was a writer...i lived in my favourite city/.....
but all too often I sniped at my husband, i lost my temper easily, i suffered bouts of melancholy, listlessness and free-floating guilt."
"i wasnt depressed and i wasnt having a midlife crisis, but i was suffering from a midlife malaise - a recurrent sense of discontent and almost a feeling of disbelief. Can this be me?'
'But though at times I felt dissatisfied, that something was missing, I also never forgot how fortunate I was.....'
'When i stepped back to reflect on my resolutions, i was struck their small scale.T ake January - Go to bed earlier. and Tackle a nagging task. These didnt sound dramatic or colourful or particularly ambitious.
'Other peoples radical happiness projects such as Thoreau's move to Walden Pond and Liz Gilberts move to Italy, India and Indonesia, exhilarated me. ...... But my project wasnt like that.....I didnt want to undertake that kind of extraordinary change./.....And more important I didnt want to reject my life. I wanted to change my life by finding more happiness in my own kitchen..../.'
'...my real worry about my project: Was it supremely self-centred to spend so much effort on my own happiness?'
(the author goes on to quote various philosophers and modern scientists and concludes)
"....shows that happy people are more altuistic, more productive, more helpful, more likable, more creative, more resilient, more interested in others, friendlier and healthier. Happy people make better friends, colleauges and citizens. I wanted to be one of those people."
I have only just finished chapter 1 but I can already see that this book will be a valuable read.
Change isnt in the big things. It is in the tiny details of our everyday lives that we either fail to see because we are too busy or we fail to acknowledge the weight of seemingly small decisions that have far-reaching effects.