The Hurdles Continue
What a year it has been so far. A year that has surprised, challenged and redefined paradigms. I am beginning to question if there is any other type of year?
Faith's biggest hurdle has been the navigation of high school. She has blown my mind in her attitude, fortitude and resilience.
She has excelled in every area both socially and academically, however the cost to her personally has been high. Her perfection based personality has seen her throw her entire being into making sure she aces school. While some may find this admirable (and it is!) I have found it very difficult to watch.
My once creative and free spirited kid has become riddled with anxiety; tearful daily, overwhelmed and depressed. She no longer dances, she no longer draws or creates. She focuses purely on academia and the soul of who she is has been lost to the system. A system I fundamentally DESPISE.
School has taught her how smart she is - this was always an issue for her as her sibs brought home outstanding marks every term....little did she know that she would walk into school and do the self same thing. It has been an eye-opening experience for my Little Miss Creative who has now added the title of Little Miss Also-Academic to her name. For this I am grateful.
School has given her a confidence that she so desparately needed. She truly has found herself. She is no longer the kid that is not sure where she fits or if she is enough. For this I am so grateful ... school can sometimes have the opposite effect!
eotelov
Chances are very good that I will give her the option to leave at the end of this year.
It remains to be seen how things will turn out.
Faith's biggest hurdle has been the navigation of high school. She has blown my mind in her attitude, fortitude and resilience.
She has excelled in every area both socially and academically, however the cost to her personally has been high. Her perfection based personality has seen her throw her entire being into making sure she aces school. While some may find this admirable (and it is!) I have found it very difficult to watch.
My once creative and free spirited kid has become riddled with anxiety; tearful daily, overwhelmed and depressed. She no longer dances, she no longer draws or creates. She focuses purely on academia and the soul of who she is has been lost to the system. A system I fundamentally DESPISE.
School has taught her how smart she is - this was always an issue for her as her sibs brought home outstanding marks every term....little did she know that she would walk into school and do the self same thing. It has been an eye-opening experience for my Little Miss Creative who has now added the title of Little Miss Also-Academic to her name. For this I am grateful.
School has given her a confidence that she so desparately needed. She truly has found herself. She is no longer the kid that is not sure where she fits or if she is enough. For this I am so grateful ... school can sometimes have the opposite effect!
eotelov
Chances are very good that I will give her the option to leave at the end of this year.
It remains to be seen how things will turn out.
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