Levi in 2019
2019 has been a huge year for Levi. I have watched him just burst out in so many areas. He has achieved every goal he set for himself (and more) in 2016.
My biggest concern all those years ago was how I was going to parent this energetic, sports-driven young boy. How was I going to fuel and grow all the boyness that he embodied. I need not have been concerned - he has simply done it anyway.
He has had men in his life who have created opportunities and fanned flames that I would not have been able to do and for this I am grateful.
My role was simply to feed him. Lots. And take him to the chiro. And help him navigate some anxieties and insecurities. To be present at his games.
There have been considerable setbacks and many sleepless nights - particularly this last month.
An injury took him out of WP trials in the very last round....he had to make a choice - he could push through and try to make the team or he could pull out, recover and go on XV Team tour to Durban with his mates for a week.
It was a huge decision for him but ultimately he pulled out of WP and opted for the tour. Best decision ever - that week will live on with him way longer than a WP selection.
After tour he came home with a cut that developed a bacterial infection ....5 days of antibiotics and horrific tissue damage.
In the midst of discovering the bacterial infection the doctor also picked up a significant heart murmour. He sent us off to the cardiologist for an echo to ensure there was no heart damage. We had to wait 2 weeks for this appointment which had me a wreck. But all is well. It is a physiological murmour and will have no bearing on his life.
The day after this appointment - yesterday - I put him on the bus to Knysna for soccer tour. A healed knee, a healed back and a healthy heart. It has been tough for this mom but OMIGOSH, the relief.
It is no joke living in a world where such awful things can happen - my past trauma visits me often and I struggle with the thought of further loss. Its a difficult way to live but somehow we must all just keep moving forward. In moments, like today, where all is well in my world I am so deeply grateful to just be.
Time for a run. :-)
My biggest concern all those years ago was how I was going to parent this energetic, sports-driven young boy. How was I going to fuel and grow all the boyness that he embodied. I need not have been concerned - he has simply done it anyway.
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| Prefect Ceremony |
My role was simply to feed him. Lots. And take him to the chiro. And help him navigate some anxieties and insecurities. To be present at his games.
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| Player of the Tour |
There have been considerable setbacks and many sleepless nights - particularly this last month.
It was a huge decision for him but ultimately he pulled out of WP and opted for the tour. Best decision ever - that week will live on with him way longer than a WP selection.
After tour he came home with a cut that developed a bacterial infection ....5 days of antibiotics and horrific tissue damage.
In the midst of discovering the bacterial infection the doctor also picked up a significant heart murmour. He sent us off to the cardiologist for an echo to ensure there was no heart damage. We had to wait 2 weeks for this appointment which had me a wreck. But all is well. It is a physiological murmour and will have no bearing on his life.
The day after this appointment - yesterday - I put him on the bus to Knysna for soccer tour. A healed knee, a healed back and a healthy heart. It has been tough for this mom but OMIGOSH, the relief.
It is no joke living in a world where such awful things can happen - my past trauma visits me often and I struggle with the thought of further loss. Its a difficult way to live but somehow we must all just keep moving forward. In moments, like today, where all is well in my world I am so deeply grateful to just be.
Time for a run. :-)
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