Music Musings

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Music.

It has always held much magic for me but never quite as intensely as the last 18months.

This weekend found me lying in the sun at a beautiful vineyard, surrounded by friends, listening to Watershed.



As I lay there I took notice of how happy I was. I took notice of the way my skin felt. I listened to my heartbeat. I touched the grass and I inhaled the scent of the man next to me. I was overwhelmed with gratitude but, in that same moment, a tinge of sadness seeped through my pores.




Sadness is not something I try to run from anymore. I find she often arrives at the most unexpected times and I have learnt to sit with her in comfortable silence. Sadness amplifies joy. She has shown me that with her I can taste life in colours I have never seen.

I let the music wash over me and smiled as the lyrics told me a story I already knew.


Tell her about today
Tel her about my stay
Tell her we better off this way
Tell her I meant to stay
I'll be back someday
But maybe not today

Tell her, tell her I'm going away
Tell her the wind will blow, on the day I go
And no-one else should know
Tell her I'll see her there, with the wind in her hair
And our angels in her hands
Tell her, tell her I'll be waiting there

[...................................................]

Tell her, her heart is mine
I keep it with me all the time
Right beside mine.



I am no longer tortured by the duality of my life.

I love my life. I love what was. And I love what is.

And I look forward to what will be.



Comments

cat said…
Always inspirational - thanks Mel
November 7, 2016 at 8:59 AM
allie. said…
"Sadness amplifies joy. She has shown me that with her I can taste life in colours I have never seen" Such beauty and wisdom in these words. . .
November 7, 2016 at 9:11 AM
ANNE said…
Beautiful Mel...so grateful you are in this space now...love you ♡
November 7, 2016 at 11:56 AM
Unknown said…
You are inspirational thank you
November 8, 2016 at 6:28 AM
Unknown said…
You are inspirational thank you
November 8, 2016 at 6:28 AM
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