WRITE SOMETHING

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I have no idea where to start with this post. In fact that is probably the reason I have not written one entry since the pandemic began and lock-down was instituted 3 weeks ago. Words seem insufficient to describe a time like this.

Today marks the end of lock-down - Season 1. Season 2 was announced last week when Ramaphosa told us we would have to extend for another 2 weeks before any freedom of movement can be considered.

The world has stopped. Literally stopped. It is definitely the most remarkable, unique movie script ever written and living through this is nothing short of surreal.

The kids and I went into quarantine before lock-down even began - the minute the schools closed I closed our home borders along with them. It has been really hard on them but they have adjusted well and now life potters along.

Our homeschooling history has definitely made this time so much easier for us as a family. The kids are completely self-motivated and able to thrive in on online education environment.

I have spent these first 3 weeks kind of getting my head around the massive hit to my income (my tenants cant pay rent and my job is international events.....) My investments have plummeted and keeping my head above water in the coming years is going to be far more precarious but I can only take one day at a time.

It is definitely in times like these that being the only adult and sole provider is incredibly scary.

I have spent the last 3 weeks mainly thinking that I should be writing, I should be creating in some sort of artistic way, I should be figuring out how I am going to survive in the coming years, I should be moving money around, I should be thinking of trying to cut back on stuff, I should be spending more time with my kids, I should be reading more.....

But I have found my happy place is actually doing jack-shit. Unless I am moved to do something at all. 

My dogs are a constant source of delight. Finding new ways to push my body is good. Not being able to run was debilitating at first - I cried a little - but in time you have to find new ways of sorting your shit out and so I did. (not to mention the backlash one receives for every voicing the desire to run...apparently this desire = selfish, ignorant, mass murderer)

Skipping and dancing have become my new ways to keep sane.

I am glad I wrote today. It is all just words on a page.... but here it is and this is where I will leave it.

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