Singing in the Dark

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Never give up

So after my pity party yesterday I guess its timeous to pull my head out my own ass.

As it would happen I stumbled across Ann Voscamp's latest post:

DARING TO HOPE WHEN ITS NOT HAPPY ENDINGS : HOW TO SING IN THE DARK


Reading stuff like this has the tendency to produce feelings of shame and inadequacy in me. How can I be so utterly gormless and whiney when there are REAL people out there with REAL shit and doing REAL meaningful stuff.

Thankfully I manage to shake that bullshit story quickly though. I remember that I am in the centre of my life and am living my own reality to the best of my ability. It is okay to feel the way I do from time to time.

It is not okay to stay there and revel in the murkiness of self pity.

Articles like these are not to shame me but to remind me. To remind me of who I am. Of who I ultimately serve. To remind me that all this shit is not mine alone to endure.


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"...and suddenly the hard road becomes not a burden but a place of great honour, a place of partnership and intimacy with Him...."

'...hope is a crazy thing, a courageous thing. Faith is a bold irrational choice...."

'..our pain does not minimise His goodness to us but, in fact, allows us to experience it in a whole new way...."

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