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Never give up So after my pity party yesterday I guess its timeous to pull my head out my own ass. As it would happen I stumbled across Ann Voscamp's latest post: DARING TO HOPE WHEN ITS NOT HAPPY ENDINGS : HOW TO SING IN THE DARK Reading stuff like this has the tendency to produce feelings of shame and inadequacy in me. How can I be so utterly gormless and whiney when there are REAL people out there with REAL shit and doing REAL meaningful stuff. Thankfully I manage to shake that bullshit story quickly though. I remember that I am in the centre of my life and am living my own reality to the best of my ability. It is okay to feel the way I do from time to time. It is not okay to stay there and revel in the murkiness of self pity. Articles like these are not to shame me but to remind me. To remind me of who I am. Of who I ultimately serve. To remind me that all this shit is not mine alone to endure. ****************************8 "...and suddenly the h...

I have had a tough few days. Things seem to keep getting on top of me. I then take stock and try to rearrange the furniture in my brain into some sort of manageable formation. I have come to realise that life is simply a choice of which pain to endure. There are definitely high points but ultimately it really is a road of learning to endure hard things. It is quite a jarring reality for me. I am not denying that I have had many MANY good things but I suppose as you get older you become increasingly aware that to come to a place of 'good things' you have had to probably endure some seriously NOT good things. It's that duality thing again. My head is a tangled mess of loose threads. There are days, weeks even, where I am able to be comfortable in the uncertainty that is this life.  But lately it seems to be catching up to me....I am destabilised more easily, more often Its a kak feeling. I have so much going on in my life that today I am numb. It is almost lik...