FIVETRIBE

I can't believe its mid-July. So much for blogging my way through 2022 with my kids. It has been a whirlwind with radical ups and downs. BUT one thing that is sure is that we have definitely been more intentional about spending time together. Doing more stuff and having little mini-adventures. It has been sad for me that this year - which had been held as a beacon year with our 50, 21,18, and 16 birthdays has had to become something very different. No such lofty plans as an overseas trip....or even a local one at this stage. It just isn't going to happen however sometimes big trips come in weird forms and ours is no different.... We are moving house. After 16yrs in our rather large home in a secure estate we are moving back to my very first little townhouse that I bought in 1999. It is a radical, enormous and exceptionally insane move but I am certain (well, almost) certain that it is the right one for us at this time. I loved (and still love) my little Hillcrest home. It is a ...

Dear Russ, It has arrived.  Over our many years together we spoke of 2022 with such anticipation!  Of all the things we would do this magic year. We spoke of it as if it were an absolute surety.  We would arrive together and celebrate all the remarkable milestones together.   It did seem so far away at the time but never did I think I would arrive here alone.  Without the ONE person in the world that makes each of these milestones real.  It just feels so utterly devastating and surreal that I am here and you are not. I want to delete 2022 and arrive in 2023. But I cannot rob our children of this year. Levi will be 16. Faith will be 18. Rachel will be 21. I will be 50. And we would be celebrating our 30 year wedding anniversary. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. I felt the horror of deep grief beginning to crawl through my veins in early December. Knowing I had to face Christmas with cheer and a smile. And then 2022 would still be waiting for me. An entire year of loss af...